Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Pity Party! And youre ALLLLL invited!

I feel like Im wearing down emotionally.. Ill have a few good weeks, then Ill crash and it takes a few days to clear up the wreckage. Each "crash" gets harder to recover from. Im half way through chemo and so many thoughts flood my mind regularly.. what if its not all gone when chemo is over? There are two drugs that I can never have again, so how would I be treated then? What if the chemo isnt working, or what if the cancer still spreads? I have so many questions and most of them I dont want the anwsers to. Even though I feel pretty good physically, Im mentally drained... I think the kids and B are suffering because of it.

We're going to need SO much therapy! Photobucket
Posted by at

4 comments:

  1. JayneFebruary 12, 2009 at 7:19 AM

    HUGE (((HUGS))) Wendy. You do very well to just have the crashes and not to feel drained the whole time. You are coping so SO well with everything this disease is throwing at you and whilst it's impossible to stop worrying try to take hope from the fact that you are feeling good, physically at least. You are such a strong woman, you're an inspiration. You will beat this, I have no doubt at all. Love you xx

    ReplyDelete
  2. Mama DuckFebruary 12, 2009 at 7:30 AM

    ((Hugs)) The waiting and wondering must be agonizing. I think you are handling it well, though. It is hard enough to care for lots of little ones and a tiny one, too! But, to throw cancer into the mix - wow. You are amazing!

    ReplyDelete
  3. HillaryFebruary 16, 2009 at 7:24 PM

    Aw, Wendy, you're really doing well. Don't be hard on yourself. All the physical stuff you're going through directly impacts your emotions. Man, the chemicals in your body alone have got to alter your emotions. And your worries are so related to your reality. But you must take it one day at a time. Maybe one hour, one minute, one moment at a time. Whatever gets you through. And sure, it's all got to be hard on B and the kids, but they will get through it with you. And as hard as this experience is on ALL of you, you will all grow in a beautiful way. Difficulties like you're going through change people and strengthen them...when they actually feel like they're being broken down and weakened. Beneath it all, you're growing stronger. You're going to make it, Wendy!!

    My prayers are with you! (((((hugs)))))

    ReplyDelete
  4. WendyFebruary 19, 2009 at 8:32 AM

    Thank you Hill, what a lovely thing to say :)

    ReplyDelete

Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom)